So here I am 8:41am waiting to see the doctor. Told I might have a kidney stone... Joy! Seems like my life has been the hurry up and wait style as of late. Well dammit to hell, god made me impatient!
Speaking if waiting I am sure my lovely and amazingly beautiful better 7/8ths is waiting for me at home. She woke up this morning thinking she had a feeling that I was off to meet someone or do something behind her back. I hate when she gets those feelings. Afterall I have been working so hard on eliminating those thoughts and feelings from her mind and re establishing her security and self worth to where she knows I only want her. I've been doing the right thing and after the way I was treated like a king when I got home last night I'd have to be a fool to go behind her back. I love this woman!! But once again waiting plays into the equation!
I have been waiting for us to be a couple again! I have been waiting for her to tell me she loves me everyday. Waiting sucks! I have been waiting for the day we get married, however I do not want to buy her fake breasts as a "wedding gift". I have been waiting for her to realize how beautiful she is! Her breasts are perfect her butt is so awesome I love watching her as we walk in the store, her legs are so smooth against my body as we sleep at night! Her stomach is so flat I love it, but all these supermodels and magazines have her believe she isn't good enough. I am partly to blame but I am waiting for her to realize that I love her just the way she is! The additions and fixes she wants to do to her body just aren't acceptable to me. I don't want her to touch anything. I am scared if she does get a boob job as it is referred to, I may not find that attractive. But at the same time I want to make her happy. Talk about a quandary!
Yet I still wait... Wait for us to be together again, wait to be able to truly call her my wife, wait for her to realize that I find her so incredibly attractive that when she walks by I can't help but stare. I wait for the day I get to make love to her again, and I wait for the day she says I am the one. She doesn't know because i didnt act like I did, but I've known all along she was the one for me... We just had to beat those tough times... And now we wait!
