Another mistake

Well this amazing woman I am dating has a blog and I noticed how much it helped her writing things out. Well I figured I would try this. We aren't perfect and we make mistakes. It seems I have never been able to say what I am trying to say the right way. Compliments come out as insults, romantic thoughts come out like a cheap pick up line and when I am hurt trying to e plain my feelings come out in hurtful expressions or worse yet things I don't mean but say... It seems my mouth out runs my brain and I can't think when I am trying to say something. Well it once again happened last night. I attempted to call my girlfriend because I knew she was having a really bad day. I guess she was just taking time to herself but I got my feelings hurt because I wanted to help her feel better. I have certain beliefs that many would consider old fashioned and out dated. I guess it's time to let some of those go. The thing that hurt me the most was that I was trying to explain that I didn't want my beliefs to get in the way of our relationship and instead of talking about compromise it came out as an ultimatum and me not being sure if I wanted to spend my life with her. After saying it I was immediately tripped up. On my words I realized what I had said was not what I was trying to convey. I felt horrible. I still do and she still won't talk to me. I have never wanted to be with anyone more than I want to be with her. I have already put money down on a ring for her and had picked out a day to propose.... I just hope we can get past this bump in the road... I am not perfect and I make my mistakes... But I do know that it's high time I change my outlook on the world and let go of the negativity. Maybe my beliefs the ones that keep me from certain social interactions and have been the demise of relationships maybe they are what needs to change too. I know this morals and beliefs can't hold me at night like she does. They can't kiss me and tell me they love me like she does... They don't tell me they want to spend their life with me like she does... She makes me happy and my beliefs have made me misserable... I want her, to wake up to every morning for the rest of my life... I love her her name is Briana Renee and she has my heart and soul....