Confused

So I decided to see what these Tuesday things are for bri! I wanted her to see I support her choice to find God and his healing hands. I know the girl has been through a lot! I wanted to go to a support group session but was scared. I kept telling her I was here for her. She got mad at me and said she is the only one that was here for her. Instead she tells me I should go to a group to deal with my own issues. OUCH! I do agree it would be nice... But I was trying to be a pillar of support for her! Instead I got a metephorical slap in the face. It hurt so I walked away and am currently sitting In the truck. It sucks how badly I want in but she refuses! It's cold out here baby! I want inside I want to know it all I want us to communicate! I want there to be an us ! She was soooo mad tonight and I tried making it better and it didn't help! She is struggling on her own and I see it but she refuses to admit how hard it is. I just want to grab her and hug her and tell her to just cry it out! She's too independent for that! I guess I will continue to let her beat me up In a sense because it makes her feel better. I am strong enough to carry all of us but I need her to be willing for me to catch her when she falls.... I am here. Let me in. I want you no matter what you have done or are ashamed of. I see the woman I love in you... So let me in. It doesn't matter what you've done I still love you it doesn't matter where you've been you can still come home... And honey i love you and we've got a lot of making up to do and I can't hug you on the phone so hurry home! I love you babe just let me in!