The truth!

So I am writing this to my special someone. Its time the truth really came out. I am so bad at lying I don't even know what lies I had told. But the truth is you've given me so many chances. I am so blessed to have you in my life. But I am a consistent excuse for a man. I mess up constantly. I am so sick of me being that way. I promise this time will be different. I always said one more chance and if I screw up I'll leave. That was a lie. I can't just walk away from you. I can't just give up on something that means so much to me. I really have changed. I am a new man but I still lie. Truth is sometimes I am scared of you. You get so angry and mad I don't want to tell you the truth. I really am scared of you when you are pjssed. I am trying. So I won't tell anymore lies at all. Not a small one not a white one nothing but the truth. I just want to be with you. I know it's hard to trust me but I can't lose you again and I will do anything to stop that from happening. Please give me a chance to honestly fix this, all of this. I can be the man you need me to be.