I'm sorry

I just keep realizing how bad I messed up... I wish I could go back in time because I really hurt her with my jealousy. God I had a great woman... And once again I lost her. Why can't I be normal?!?! Why do I always seem to leave the deepest scars. Why can't my mistakes be staying out too late with the boys or forgetting to put the toilet seat down. No I had to go and ruin something so important that it cut the deepest it's ever cut before. I am so sorry, not for the fact she left but because I hurt her so badly and because it isn't the first time and because I love her and the last thing I wanted to do was Hurt her.... Baby I am so sorry....