living with the consequences, but knowing the truth

right now, i am in the process of cleaning and moving a few things out to the camper. I understand that I can't hold the love of my life right now, but there have been those few instances where we were close again and she was touching me and holding me. Unfortunately she is still trying to sort things out while trying to graduate and figure out grad school this summer. The truth is she does still love me, it's obvious to even the blindest of fools, but she needs her time. Yes I want to go back to loving her and being "her guy" but thats selfish. She posted a blog about digging out, i just pray when she figures out what to do, it still involves being with me. So for now I will disappear, get out of her way, and hope that soon she will let me back in. I want in and I want back to love the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with... so goodbye for now, until we get to that point.... i'm signing off to wait out the time and deal with the pain...